I know you need a friend
Someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love
There's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do

I heard you on the phone
You took his number
Said you weren't alone, but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy
The guy who left you cryin'
Isn't he the one who made you blue
When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you've gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you going back to the one you love
Someone's gonna cry when they learn they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

What you gonna say when he comes over
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams
All the disappointments
Oh girl -- What you gonna do
Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you've gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you going back to the one you love
Someone's gonna cry when they learn they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

今天上班有空，和一朋友随意瞎掰，伊一语惊人，施比受幸福。我顿悟，恍然隔世。

有些时候，我们常常活在自己编织的童话里，小鱼小朋友某日很崇拜的眼神说，你有种天生的忧郁气质，神秘的东方女人。呵呵，我笑场，差点喘不过气来，但还是努力憋住，很忧郁异常女人的声音说，你还小呢，别成天为赋新词强说愁，哪来那么多忧郁。

合上电脑，我开始思索。我常常叫伊小朋友，伊据礼力争了很多次，说只是生的比我晚了小几天而已。最常常说的话就是，记得你要开心，忧郁的微笑很动人云云。今天其实我很想告诉他，我又忧郁了，原来施比受幸福。这是个新理论。

活在自己的童话里，很多人都希望有美好的结局，但是不幸福，我从没梦想过，cinderellab不是我，从来就不是我。曾经以为我会遭遇刻骨铭心与山盟海誓，原来才发现生活中没有这么多辛苦，不过是平常的一个牵手相伴。只是今日，我才得知施比受幸福。我不过扮演了一个受的角色。很大成分上我是在成全别人的童话，友情出演了一幕幕别人的剧。我是主角，只不过是导演的主角，观众的主角，接受的主角，不是我自己的。

一日，别人的故事剧终，我失落，因为受也一并被剧终。施的人功德圆满，完成了所有的幸福，剩下我一只空壳，被导演无情的CUT。受是痛苦，其实，只是很晚，我才明白，并无力改变。。。

 

 

冬日的午后，人会莫名的浮躁不安分，我清楚地知道这份悸动风般来去，搅了我的心思。来了悄无声息，走了却异常的执卓顽固，扰了又扰我的心，偏偏一去不返。

风翻开心里的坟场才开始害怕，要拥有必先懂得失去该如何接受。如若今天你选择送花，那我必定微笑着等待，前尘随缘化成相遇的瞬间，于是我们又各自消失在漫漫的人海丛林 ，孤独终究仍然孤独。不知你怎么变迁，谁为了生活能不会变，澄澈的眼眸如若人生初初相见。如若我能等待，那我必定等待，等待那一如睡梦初醒的孩童般的微笑与勇气。